Breathe in and breathe out

The boyfriend is officially deployed in Afghanistan now.  I never understood how easy it has been up to this point.  It goes to show you that when you complain about something, someone somewhere always will have it worse.  When he was doing his training at Fort Bliss, we got to talk everyday.  I believe there was maybe only two days that we went without actually speaking, but a text was always in sight.  Yesterday was the first day in our relationship that I did not hear anything.  It was like my world was at a stand still until I heard from him.  Thank goodness my phone rang this morning from a text and I got my usual morning wake up.  Seeing that, made my whole entire world come alive again.  I encourage you to love your loved one a little more, hug them a little tighter, and cherish them like you've never cherished them before.

Suddenly, everything changed....

For awhile, I knew that July 10, 2012 would be a day that would change my world forever.  I just did not know how exactly.  On that day, I had to say bye to my best friend and love of my life.  My dear boyfriend got deployed.  Having to say bye to him and go through the motions was by far the worst thing that I have ever had to do! Since then, it has been a work in progress getting up and continuing on with life so that I do not become the ultimate hermit.  At first, I felt as though someone had punched me in the stomach and left me with no air to breath.  I felt lost and was not sure what to do with myself.  Now I have made myself a busy little bee with school, working out, and figuring out Zumba routines so that I can teach a class.  That was my goal; to be as busy as possible!  Now, I find that I do enjoy being busy (it makes the day go by faster)  however, I feel as though a nice day to myself with nothing to do would suite me fine.  No classes that I must complete, no workouts to do, no worry of getting fat because I can't workout looming over my head, and the list could go on and on.  I just need a night where I could eat a good meal.  Curl up in a blanket and read a book or even watch a good movie!  A way to distress myself of all the hussle bussle and worry that surrounds me.